are you still there??

I think about you all the time...
do you think about me?
i know that you know about me and tell me that you love me when you see me face to face once a year..
all the moments we have shared together have been amazing.. you have seen me in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows... but do you care to ask me how im doing today??
we used to be so close... you were my brother?? are you still?? i dont see the love anymore.. it just seems like another day has gone where you dont think about me... i know i love you with all my heart... thats why i cant stop thinking about you and your family.. i looked up to you my whole life... and i wonder where you are right now... and i just wanna give you a hug but your so distant and far away... i wish i could drive to see you.. but i destroyed my car last week.. and you didnt care to send me a message... our blackberry messanger is still being pended even tho i sent you an invatation over month ago.. i want you back in my life.. i want the joy you bring in my life... i cant live without you... you are the one that kept me sain and alive for so many years...
all i ever want is you to talk to me again... for you to take time out of your day for me...
when i was lost you found me... my big brother where are you today??? i miss you and love you...